Well it's been a few weeks of the exhausting rollercoaster ride that is coming to terms with a family member who is suffering a mental illness.
For me this time has been a time of very deep sorrow and at times strong hope in a outcome which would be amazing and just what I expect.
The reality is for me and my family is that as we have investigated this issue further and the more tests that are done, I realise just how long in this journey there still is to go, and it's going to only become more of a burden on my mental health.
The support is amazing and as a family, it is amazing to know that people truly care and want to help. To face reality is a harsh consequence of life sometimes and it is compounded when the person doesn't think that they are sick. No one will ever probably know the cause and effects but we as a family grieve that the person we once knew is no longer her and the person they have become (even for this short time) is such a stranger to us that we live in surreal world.
I continue to be broken, sad, frustrated, hopeful and unwaining in my faith, but as the time pushes on, I am constantly asking God why this has happened and to give myself and my entire family the strength to cope.
As I try to live a 'normal' life I know that my life is far from 'normal' at the moment. I have two requests at this time... 1. Pray for my Family and if you are a close friend, feel free to skype or call and I will be happy to talk. 2. Never leave a moment in time by not telling the people you love how much you love and cherish them. One day they could be perfect, the next day you could be dealing with a situation way beyond you or anyone else's control.
