What am I worth

As the clock ticked over to midnight last night, I sat in silence reflecting on the last 12 months and the months ahead. 365 days ago I sat doing the same dreaming of what the year ahead might mean. Last night on my mind was the incredible journey that my life has been. I have played in many venues, many audiences and developed a bit of a following for my skills. I have put my hand to new skills in production and also in leadership. I have stood up more than ever for what I believe in. I have made judgements based on reflection and not impulse. The question on my mind last night was 'Just what is my worth'?

I've been thinking a great deal about this question as I have read and analysed the salaries of many famous people and also the sporting elite and influential people.

To be honest as I turn another year older (yep today is my birthday) all I can think of is that I can't put a figure on what I am worth.... I have not seen the potential fully in my life yet! I don't know or really care to think of what others might place on my life, but I have wrestled with this question in my life because of where I am with my job, my life and my spirituality.

How do I measure my success and worth? Quite simply, at present I'm not measuring it. I'm allowing myself to fail if need be to learn valuable lessons in humility and growth. I'm allowing my life to be free and engaging in what I consider to be soul and mind searching journies which have shown me areas in which I am strong and so incredibly weak in that I can't rely on myself to achieve anything.

In my job, I am often humbled by the fact that I have no idea of what the students actually think of me, it gives me a little sense of vunerability. All I can say is that when I do hear of how I have changed a life or inspired a thought, it makes me realise just how important it is to not worry about the how much and worry about the why....

So after three rowdy and rousing versions of Happy Birthday from students, I at least hope that they see me for who I am and not for what I get labelled with.

Much Blessings.